By: Ann-Marie Ferry Sitting cross legged on the warm summer ground I comb my fingers through the damp grass. Every so often I grasp at it as if I am grasping for growing hair. A short time has passed since Kuyper’s burial, yet the patch of earth over his grave has grown in thick, making…

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By: Kayla Leibner Who am I? I am a Christian.  I am a mother. I am a wife.  I am a daughter. I am a sister.  I am a friend. I am more things, but these are the identities that are most important to me.  First and foremost, my identity is in Christ.  However, since…

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By: Elizabeth Lowder When a friend or loved one has experienced a loss like a miscarriage, failed IVF or even a negative pregnancy test, we want to do something to help. To take the pain and sadness away and to help them feel better. Common responses couples hear when they’re going through infertility might be…

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By: Jennifer Kouri RN, CPLC “You are a labor & delivery nurse? You are SO lucky! That has to be the happiest unit in the hospital!” Working as a labor nurse for 20 years I have heard these phrases many times from people when they ask what I do for a living. Yes, it truly…

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By: Nikki Grayson Angel Wings and a baby hat; black and white photographs and a little blue blanket; nurses to cry with and a doctor to share your fears with. It was one year ago on a Monday morning when I walked through the double doors of the OB floor. As I followed the nurse…

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By: Kayla Leibner It’s no secret that it can be difficult to return to a state of normalcy after a life-altering event.  Adjusting to and recovering from big changes takes time – and sometimes a lot of it.  When you lose a child, returning to normal isn’t really an option.  Life never looks the same,…

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By: Ann-Marie Ferry I am not sure where the thought originated from, but it popped out of my mouth and found its way into the hospital air, “Should we baptize him?” I asked.  Jon and I did not entertain the thought for long. After all, neither of us believed in Infant Baptism. Why would we…

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By: Christine Ford Losing my son to Trisomy 18 on May 5, 2018 has completely changed my life. My outlook on life has changed and how I connect with and view others has changed. I have much more empathy towards others who have miscarried, had a stillbirth, or have lost an infant, baby, or young…

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By: Ann-Marie Ferry A few years back my husband and I decided to take the dull winter months of the Midwest to read to each other in the evenings. I am a lifelong fan of C.S. Lewis. The Chronicles of Narnia, Mere Christianity, and The Screwtape Letters are among my favorites. My husband, Jon, is…

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By: Shawanna Allen Numbness, Confusion, Anger, Pain, Shame, Emptiness, and Sadness In no particular order are the aforementioned all the emotions I experienced on August 8th when I, in my heart knew and then affirmed by the emergency room doctor that I was indefinitely having a miscarriage. Prior to this day I had been back…

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