Writing your Baby’s Story

By: Ann-Marie Ferry i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)  i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for…

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Rest for Your Soul

By: Kayla Leibner Life can be exhausting.  Some seasons just seem to never stop moving.  I am in a season of my life in which there is always something that needs to be done – laundry, dishes, cleaning, meal planning, school, bills, groceries, errands… the list could go on and on.  I often have a…

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The Lyrics That Help To Tell My Story

By: Ann-Marie Ferry I love words. They are like food for my soul. A good phrase can capture a thought like a snapshot and then paint it in vivid color. Soon after the loss of my son, when friends and family did not know what to say and when the thoughts in my head were…

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The Pain of Forward Motion: When Memories Fade

By: Ann-Marie Ferry Sitting cross legged on the warm summer ground I comb my fingers through the damp grass. Every so often I grasp at it as if I am grasping for growing hair. A short time has passed since Kuyper’s burial, yet the patch of earth over his grave has grown in thick, making…

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How Many?

By: Kayla Leibner Who am I? I am a Christian.  I am a mother. I am a wife.  I am a daughter. I am a sister.  I am a friend. I am more things, but these are the identities that are most important to me.  First and foremost, my identity is in Christ.  However, since…

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Two Times The Struggle

By: Kayla Leibner It’s no secret that it can be difficult to return to a state of normalcy after a life-altering event.  Adjusting to and recovering from big changes takes time – and sometimes a lot of it.  When you lose a child, returning to normal isn’t really an option.  Life never looks the same,…

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The Care and Compassion of a Chaplain

By: Ann-Marie Ferry I am not sure where the thought originated from, but it popped out of my mouth and found its way into the hospital air, “Should we baptize him?” I asked.  Jon and I did not entertain the thought for long. After all, neither of us believed in Infant Baptism. Why would we…

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Helping Others Through My Grief

By: Christine Ford Losing my son to Trisomy 18 on May 5, 2018 has completely changed my life. My outlook on life has changed and how I connect with and view others has changed. I have much more empathy towards others who have miscarried, had a stillbirth, or have lost an infant, baby, or young…

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When Our Heart’s Hurt: Unveiling The Face Of Grief

By: Ann-Marie Ferry A few years back my husband and I decided to take the dull winter months of the Midwest to read to each other in the evenings. I am a lifelong fan of C.S. Lewis. The Chronicles of Narnia, Mere Christianity, and The Screwtape Letters are among my favorites. My husband, Jon, is…

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The Emotions You Experience During Your Grief

By: Shawanna Allen Numbness, Confusion, Anger, Pain, Shame, Emptiness, and Sadness In no particular order are the aforementioned all the emotions I experienced on August 8th when I, in my heart knew and then affirmed by the emergency room doctor that I was indefinitely having a miscarriage. Prior to this day I had been back…

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