Life After Loss
The Life That Is Waiting For Us
By: Brooke Taylor Duckworth When I lost Eliza, I began reading blogs written by other bereaved parents and “baby loss mamas.” I gravitated toward those who were on a grief timeline similar to mine, who had experienced their loss around the same time I had. I also wanted to read some blogs written by women…
Read MoreThe Internal Battle of Parenting After Loss
By: Sabrina Ivy Parenting is hard. Parenting after loss takes it to a whole other level. From the moment we find out we are pregnant, we immediately begin to imagine our family with our new bundle of joy. Our sole purpose becomes ensuring we are doing everything we can to bring our babies into this…
Read MoreI’m Not The Mom I Dreamed I’d Be
By: Rachael Fast This topic seemed so easy to write about, however, as I sit to write, my mind goes blank. How do I write about something that is all I’ve ever known, as far as parenting goes? My first baby girl, Elaina Hope was stillborn at 40 weeks in March 2011. She was my…
Read MoreRemembering Hope: Sibling’s Grief
By: Robyn Busekrus Sibling grief is different than a parent’s grief. The child we lost was meant to be their buddy. The one who was going to be swinging with them, exploring our creek in the yard, and playing chase together. As a parent, we grieve the loss of another child that we were adding…
Read MoreThe Journey of Parenting After Loss
By: Jennifer Haake Parenting is tricky. You question yourself and every single decision you make. You worry. You worry about everything. Are they happy? Are they emotionally cared for? Am I giving them everything they need to become successful adults? The list is endless. As a bereaved parent with surviving children, the self-doubt and worry are exacerbated.…
Read MoreGrieving Honestly: Parenting After Loss
By: Brooke Taylor Duckworth A few weeks ago, I was ushering my daughter out of a crowded waiting room where she had been making small talk with an older woman. I overheard her talking about her little sister. As I opened the door and reached for her hand, she turned to the woman, who was…
Read MoreFlowers
By: Kathy Gardner Enough time has passed now and your flowers have become a source of discomfort for me. I take such care to pick them out to water them to trim their stems to arrange them to find the perfect ribbon and wrap them up And in those moments I am happy. bringing you…
Read MoreKiller White
By: Kathy Gardner When I think of you I think of color Perfect, tiny, pink colors. You were a perfect, tiny, pink baby whose weight I could barely feel on my chest– 2 lbs and 15 oz of hope, dashed away. I held you in my arms, stung by disbelief cradling the remnants of a…
Read MoreWhy?
By: Kathy Gardner it is hard to answer grief. ‘how are you doing? can I bring you anything? are you hanging in there?” they seem like such gentle and hollow questions, when pitted against a mother’s horror– my daughter is less than a mile away but I will never smell her milky breath at 3…
Read MoreLetters to Heaven
By: Sabrina Ivy My Sweet Alivia Rose, You are the first thing I think of every morning when I wake. You are the last thing on my mind when I go to sleep. Countless times I think of you throughout the day. My heart longs for you. My arms ache for you. Despite all the…
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