Posts Tagged ‘guilt’
Everyday Memories
By: Casey Zenner When you lose a child the way you do life completely changes. You begin searching for anything and everything you can that reminds you of your baby. The physical signs, and tangible objects that you can squeeze which gives you that chance to feel closer to your child. For me, its butterflies…
Read MoreI Am With You
By: Casey Zenner Close your eyes…take a deep breath. Do you feel that? The peace coming over you? That’s me. That’s me telling you I am okay, so please don’t worry. That’s me waving hello and goodbye, please hurry home, I can’t wait to hear your stories. That’s me grabbing your leg and squeezing tight in the afternoon as your day drags on. That’s me…
Read MoreThe Little Yellow Butterfly
By: Casey Zenner One of the greatest things about being a parent is watching the bond your children have grow over the years. When you have one child in Heaven the fear of missing out on witnessing that bond for me, at least, has been one of the toughest parts of this journey. Not only…
Read MoreDear Husband, Thank You
By: Casey Zenner Oftentimes on this loss journey, I find myself forgetting that there is another person on this journey with me. While I, of course, never actually forget about my husband, it is hard in the midst of my grief, to remember he is grieving too. I think that is because our husbands fill…
Read MoreTo Be A Mother, All You Must Do Is Love
By: Casey Zenner What makes someone a Mother? This is something we recently talked about in one of the Ending a Wanted Pregnancy support groups I belong to on Facebook. When you think of the word Mother, what is the first thing that comes to your mind? It may be your own mom. It may…
Read MoreWhen No Choice Is A Good Choice
By: Casey Zenner They say everything happens for a reason, and this is something I try really hard to believe. September 27th, 2017 would be the day that would leave me questioning that forever. Growing up I always dreamed of having a large family, lots of little ones running around, in my messy, never quiet…
Read MoreThe Hardest Decision I’ve Ever Made
By: Rebecca Stockwell The scariest thing about going to my first support group was worrying that I would be told I didn’t belong because I had a termination for medical reasons. I was scared my grief wouldn’t be seen as legitimate, that I would be condemned for making what I thought was the only decision…
Read MoreTo The Mom Learning to Parent After Loss
By: Kelley O. You should be enjoying life as a new parent but you can’t. You feel guilty about being happy since you’ve lost so much in the past. The joy you feel about your new baby is in competition with the sadness brought about your past losses. As if being happy about a new…
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