Walking in My Grief

By: Amanda Crews Child loss is something I had honestly never even thought about. Now, it’s all that I think about. We lost our first born at 37 weeks. On Thursday we heard his heartbeat, and on Friday, he was gone. How do you wrap your head around that? It’s nearly impossible. It took everything…

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Grieving Individually and as a Couple

By: Marie Kriedman My water broke unexpectedly on a Sunday morning, and I gave birth at home. My husband cradled our tiny daughter while I spoke with the on-call OB. She urged me to go to the ER for care. I left the hospital with an empty uterus, a body that still looked pregnant, and…

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You are not Alone

By: Amanda Crews When I rolled into our family’s house on Christmas Eve, I was nervous but also happy to see everyone. It had been around 9-months since we had lost our sweet Carson, at 37 weeks, and we were just weeks out from losing our little girl at 10 weeks. The dinner was great,…

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Making Sure She Matters

By: Marie Kriedman Miscarriages are an emotional bombshell on many levels.  The holidays can be an additional burden to families struggling with heartache. One of my struggles is knowing my daughter’s impact.  She has no birth certificate and no social security number.  Olivia was deeply loved within my family, but I have no proof of…

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What if you aren’t feeling thankful?

By: Rose Carlson ‘Tis the season to be…thankful? What if you don’t feel thankful, or think you have anything to be thankful for this year? What if you feel guilty about not having an “attitude of gratitude?” Others may tell you, “Just be thankful for what you DO have,” which can be hurtful and make…

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The Days can be Good and Bad

By: Marie Kriedman A pregnancy loss took my breath away before my daughter had a chance to experience her first one. Like many women, I had no idea what it meant to recover from a miscarriage until I was in the middle of the experience.  There were many things I “had” to do, for which…

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The Legacy of Love: How a Mother’s Loss Ignites a Powerful Purpose

By: LaCara Biddles I reclined in profound stillness upon the unsettling confines of the hospital bed. Beside me, my husband tossed and turned as he attempted to fall into a deep slumber.  I stared at the black and white clock above the door frame. The minute hand navigated the clock’s circumference, whispering the passage of…

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A Symbol of Hope and Peace

By: Marie Kriedman My miscarriage made me doubt that grief is survivable. Rationally, I knew I would survive, but emotionally, my pain was so raw that I couldn’t breathe. A friend told me that grief is like an ocean tide. The concept really resonated with me. Grief is strong, powerful, and crushing when it first…

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Being Part of the Club

By: Amanda Crews When I was in labor with our son, Carson, at 37 weeks, I had a dear friend visit me. She, too, had experienced the loss of a child. She stood alongside my bed, as my body prepared for a long labor, and she apologized. She said, “I am so sorry, Amanda. This…

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Sad Moments During Special Days

By: Marie Kriedman I find myself in a new place of my grief journey:  regret, with a side helping of disappointment and sorrow. I am struggling with the fact that my last pregnancy ended in death.  My husband and I would like to add to our family, but my age makes it more difficult.  We…

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