Full and Broken

By: Ann-Marie Ferry My heart is full and broken. I am sitting in my quiet living room as a sweet little 11-week-old girl sleeps on my chest. The time since her birth has been a peaceful one. We have experienced all the crazy sleeplessness and the insanity of transitioning to be a family of four.…

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Back to Normal

By: Ann-Marie Ferry When normal seems on its way And tears have now ceased When all the thoughts in my head  Have settled in a calm place  The flood gates open  Destroying my glimpse of peace When my mosaic heart is crumbling  And I can’t take a breath  When tears start in my throat  Burning…

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What Medical History Doesn’t Say: The Loss of Hopes and Dreams

By: Ann-Marie Ferry Jon pulls the car up to the door of the hospital. I know where to go and what to do. I’ve done this many times before. He drives off to find a parking spot and I waddle towards the elevators. As I wait with several other people for that “ding,” I feel…

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My Christmas Baby

By: Amanda Glazebrook Our story starts the same way that so many do: my husband and I dreamed of having a baby. Technically, we had a baby at home, but she’d grown into a toddler, bright and clever and so beloved that it seemed impossible to resist the lure of having another, although we’d said…

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When You Don’t Feel Like Celebrating

By: Lindsey Wimmer It’s the Most Wonderful Time of the Year!  Or so the songs tell us.  The holiday season gives us opportunities to see friends and family, attend parties, exchange gifts of love, be thankful, celebrate our faith, or many other special activities.  Unless you’re grieving the death of your baby.  Then it can…

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Sharing Your Truth

By: Amy Lied “When are you going to have kids?” “Do you have any other children?” “(Sees I have twin daughters) Going to try for a boy next?” These questions are extremely personal and, yet, asked on a regular basis, usually by complete strangers.  I’ve heard them all and more throughout my journey to start a…

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Taking Gemma’s Pain: Ending A Wanted Pregnancy

By: Megan Hofbauer I am a mother of three handsome boys and one beautiful daughter or at least I imagine she’s beautiful. When I close my eyes, I see a beautiful little girl with dark brown hair, soulful blue eyes, and olive skin but then I open my eyes and she’s gone. The reality is…

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