Honoring Your Child
Walking in My Grief
By: Amanda Crews Child loss is something I had honestly never even thought about. Now, it’s all that I think about. We lost our first born at 37 weeks. On Thursday we heard his heartbeat, and on Friday, he was gone. How do you wrap your head around that? It’s nearly impossible. It took everything…
Read MoreGrieving Individually and as a Couple
By: Marie Kriedman My water broke unexpectedly on a Sunday morning, and I gave birth at home. My husband cradled our tiny daughter while I spoke with the on-call OB. She urged me to go to the ER for care. I left the hospital with an empty uterus, a body that still looked pregnant, and…
Read MoreYou are not Alone
By: Amanda Crews When I rolled into our family’s house on Christmas Eve, I was nervous but also happy to see everyone. It had been around 9-months since we had lost our sweet Carson, at 37 weeks, and we were just weeks out from losing our little girl at 10 weeks. The dinner was great,…
Read MoreMaking Sure She Matters
By: Marie Kriedman Miscarriages are an emotional bombshell on many levels. The holidays can be an additional burden to families struggling with heartache. One of my struggles is knowing my daughter’s impact. She has no birth certificate and no social security number. Olivia was deeply loved within my family, but I have no proof of…
Read MoreWhat if you aren’t feeling thankful?
By: Rose Carlson ‘Tis the season to be…thankful? What if you don’t feel thankful, or think you have anything to be thankful for this year? What if you feel guilty about not having an “attitude of gratitude?” Others may tell you, “Just be thankful for what you DO have,” which can be hurtful and make…
Read MoreOne Step At A Time
By: Robyn Busekrus One of my favorite things to do is to sit outside at night and watch the sun go down. Sometimes the deer run through our woods and the birds perch on the feeders. When I think of the purpose in the serenity of the woods, it’s to reflect on the simple things:…
Read MoreThe Days can be Good and Bad
By: Marie Kriedman A pregnancy loss took my breath away before my daughter had a chance to experience her first one. Like many women, I had no idea what it meant to recover from a miscarriage until I was in the middle of the experience. There were many things I “had” to do, for which…
Read MoreGrowing in Grief
By: Robyn Busekrus Gardening is one of my hobbies that I enjoy. This year, my garden hasn’t been as productive as in previous years. The drought and heat have hindered our garden’s growth. When planning our garden, I think of the best produce to grow. I have learned through experience of which items grow with…
Read MoreA Symbol of Hope and Peace
By: Marie Kriedman My miscarriage made me doubt that grief is survivable. Rationally, I knew I would survive, but emotionally, my pain was so raw that I couldn’t breathe. A friend told me that grief is like an ocean tide. The concept really resonated with me. Grief is strong, powerful, and crushing when it first…
Read MoreBeing Part of the Club
By: Amanda Crews When I was in labor with our son, Carson, at 37 weeks, I had a dear friend visit me. She, too, had experienced the loss of a child. She stood alongside my bed, as my body prepared for a long labor, and she apologized. She said, “I am so sorry, Amanda. This…
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